Initiator Part 2: A letter to the Goddess

Dearest Goddess,

Please tell me what else I have forgotten than I need to remember.

Love, 
The Initiator. 


Initiator, 

Today is the first day of your new life. Today you walk on wobbly new legs as a fawn who was so lovingly birthed by its mother onto the crunchy dry fallen leaves, an earthly blanket of protection and preparation.

As you made your way down the birth canal, your head tucked tenderly between your long capable legs…is it fear that has you going into the world feet first or is it the instinct that you will always land on your feet, beloved? 

Do you understand yet the vast potential of what is brewing inside of you? What has always been and will always be inside of you? Do you feel your wholeness, your capacity, your divinity yet, dear initiator, as I do? 

Do you know the depth of bravery and strength it took for you to say “yes” to yourself? 
Yes to your life? 
Yes to your power? 
Yes to the magic? 

Perhaps this is why your head was so tenderly tucked between your legs …To say yes is both liberation and terror. An expansion and a contraction all at once. Society has told you and will tell you again and again, Beloved… “Who are you to think you are so worthy of this magical life?” “Who are you to make more, be more, live more, feel more, hold more, expand more, create more and love so much more than the rest of us?” 

The trees whisper but they cannot hear… ”I am the Goddess and the Goddess is me.”

Oh beautiful Initiator, reborn on these wobbly legs, to this spinning earth surrounded by stars…unsteady and yet rock solid, picture the fawn that you have become through the decisions you have made for your soul. 

This time, you will stand in just minutes and walk in just hours, not like a child this time, for a child takes months to stand, and over a year to walk on her wobbly legs. 

This time Initiator, you are ready. You have learned so much. You have remembered so much and you have burned to ashes all of the untruths that did not serve you in this new life so that you could be reborn as this divine new iteration of you. 

Isn’t she breathtaking? Do you feel the surprise and awe of who you are becoming and also the unshakable certainty that you have always known her, that she was always inside of you?

But, you are not just a fawn, Initiator, you are also the magnificent doe. You so lovingly held these seeds when others lost hope and let their light be extinguished into total darkness. 

Even when your flame was barely a flicker, you protected it, warrior woman. 
Even when you felt you were not enough, you did not give up on yourself, Beloved. 

When the time was right, you allowed yourself to grow these seeds into the roots that this fawn now stands upon. This fawn stands because of YOU Beloved. You midwifed yourself through the death and the birth and here you stand in a forest of fresh new choices. 

What will you choose for this beautiful soul of yours? 
For the beautiful souls you are here to guide? 
Here to teach? 
Here to heal? 

You see Initiator, you are the strength. You are the magic. You are the creator of it all, one moment, one choice at a time. 

It is going to be hard and messy and heartbreaking and so fucking beautiful, Beloved. 

Now, to answer your question, the thing you need to remember the most is that you are ready. You can do this even when it feels like you cannot. 

It is time to trust yourself now, beloved. Not just a little, not just sometimes, there is nothing out there, outside of you, that will help you. 

It is all here. 

Inside of you. 

Initiator, it will always be you. 

Love,
The Goddess